When the truth revealed...

Ever been in situation when every1 around is telling de facts bout a certain thing, then u're de only one who thinks dat u noe de best and try 2 explain 2 them dat things r nt true and as bad as wad they said.. In de end only 2 find out dat actually u're de only stupid wan who dun noe de real thing dat is happening.. Haha.. Yah.. What a fool I am! Making joke of myself.. Perfect! Great! Fantastic!

Fine.. I finally know it.. Getting 2 noe now is nt too late either.. Blame on my stupidity 2 actually believe wad has been told 2 me.. Yah.. Maybe I shouldn't hav give a damn at all..

"Trust no one"...

Jealousy...

Ever feel jealous over certain things b4? No need 2 think dy, the answer sure will be "of course"! I believe every single mankind in this world will hav this feelings b4.. A child will get jealous when his/her parents dote their siblings more.. A student will feel jealous when their teacher seems 2 adore other student more than themselves.. A teenager will get jealous when the one dat they like is behaving quite intimately wif other ppl of the opposite sex.. A husband/wife will get jealous when their spouse talks happily wif other lady/man..

Of course I'm nt gonna state the reason 4 all those mentioned earlier, bt I'm just want 2 focus more on relationship.. In a relationship, why do ppl get jealous? 1st and main reason is no other than care and love.. They love the person deeply.. Dat is why they care.. If nt, they wouldn't even bother at all.. Some of them r lack of self-confidence.. So they r afraid all the time dat they may nt be worthy enuf 2 de one dat they like.. So when the person they like is close to other ppl of the opposite sex, they tend 2 start worrying and getting tensed over it.. Especially when de one they like went out alone wif dat person.. They r afraid dat if this thing continues, then one day the one dat they like will be impressed by the others and fall 4 them..

Yah.. I noe it's true dat all the girls won't like this kind of guy.. But how will u feel when a guy dat u like or likes u won't even feel anything even when u're behaving quite intimately wif other guy? It seems weird isn't it? Maybe he trusted u too much, dat's why he can tolerate.. But this kind of guy is quite rare.. Or maybe bcos he feel dat if u wan 2 leave then leave lo.. He still can get better wan.. Guy get jealous over this thing is a normal case..This feeling of jealousy is already in our blood since we were born.. Cant get rid of it..

Of course, being too sceptical all de time is definitely not a proper way of showing our love towards them.. Cos this will eventually causes a great impact 2 our relationship wif the one dat we like.. This is very true.. In a relationship, TRUST is very important.. Bcos without it, a relationship will not last long.. 2 me, I still feel dat cant really put the blame on this kind of ppl only.. Bcos I believe dat the more they love and care, the more they'll get jealous.. Reason, maybe bcos they still think dat their relationship is still undergoing the process of achieving a stable relationship.. If in between they hav 2 face this kind of obstacles, they will certainly feel very insecure..

My advices 2 all the couple in this world is, "must accept ur other half's weakness and trust them.. Tell them ur feeling 2wards their action and slowly give them time 2 change.. Not everyone is lucky enuf 2 be 2gether wif the one who they like.. So must cherish every single moments 2 be wif the one dat u love"..

Even in friendship also.. Sometimes I do feel jealous why my friends seems 2 like other ppl more than me.. Is it bcos I treat them nt gud enuf or I'm nt as perfect as the wan they prefer?.. lol.. 2 be honest, this issue bothers me 4 quite some time dy.. Now, I'm tired of it.. I noe true frens r hard 2 find.. All the wan dat I hav met only prioritize on appeareances and those who r funny and playful.. Some r nt even reliable.. Haha.. Not going 2 care anymore.. Just gonna be myself..
I love myself 4 who I am!.. I believe one day I will meet wif the one who is really true 2 me.. And 4 sure he/she is nt going 2 be like u all(only refer 2 specific ppl).. Bcos God is fair..

Hmm.. "I'm a bad person.." Dat is wad I keep telling myself nowadays.. But.. Damn!.. If only I can be more cruel.. In order 2 survive and get into our current society, I guess hav 2 be like dat.. I'm starting 2 ignore how ppl looks at me or comments on me.. U gt prob wif me, then why de hell should I care? Come and confront me if u dare!.. But dun think u're so holy until dun hav weakness lo.. Hate the sight of sum ppl who feel dat they r always right and talks rudely.. Dun even feel like looking at u!.. Spoil my day and mood only.. See how I'm going 2 treat u later on..

Sigh.. Is this the step 2 become a bad person? I dun noe.. But I prefer this way.. At least I didnt get hurt.. It hurt others who deserve it..

If.....

Wonder why the heart still hurt when think of her...

If this is called as crush, then how long it will last?

If this is called as affection, then why it doesn't seems to fade?

If this is called as admiration, then why do my heart keep hurting?

If this is called as love, then how strong will it be?

If this is how it ends, then I rather choose not to begin in the first place...