多莫的想要告诉你。。。

I'm still missing u..
The sight of u make me miss u even more than b4..
Few times I tried 2 ask on how's ur life getting on, but I couldn't..
Cos I noe I hav 2 keep my distance from u..
To avoid misssing u more..
So dat I'll lead a better life..
Only by looking at de pictures of u will make me smile..
But smile sadly..
Dat's de worst feelings dat any1 could ever experienced..

我依然还是很想念着你。。。

你过的好吗？。。。

最近你过的好吗？。。。
Hmm.. 不知到为什么又开始想念你了。。。
不喜欢这种感觉。。。
真的好累好累。。。

加油！我一定要好起来。。 一定会做得到。。

你是我永远的“好朋友”。。。

At here, I would like 2 sincerely apologise 2 all my frens who hav been cold-shouldered or criticised by me.. Just now I received an email from iwei.. The title is Friends.. What is truely amazing is the song dat has been played.. All of sudden, an instant strange feelings overwhelmed me.. The song brought me back 2 de past and remind me of those days when I was close wif them.. It eliminate all the feelings of hatred and my grudges 2ward sum of them..

I'm feeling thankful bcos when I realised this, it's still nt too late 4 me 2 turn back.. As b4 this, I admit dat I do really tried 2 change 2 another person upon knowing dat I'm no longer dat important 2 u all.. And after all the things had happen, it make our distance more further apart.. This songs let me realise dat no matter wad happens, the memories of us still remains.. And it has the ability 2 delete all de bad things dat happens and make me miss those happy times dat we had went through 2gether.. The thought of it makes me miserably sad as time couldnt travel and those days can only be kept in our memory..

My dear friends, I'll treasure and cherish all de moments dat we hav now, as after this I dun think I'll hav much chance 2 see u all again.. Forgive me 4 being irrational and nt understanding b4 this.. We r Good Friends.. Dat is sumthing dat will never change.. Thanks 4 giving me de chance 2 noe the real meaning of "Friendship"..

Friends forever~

When the truth revealed...

Ever been in situation when every1 around is telling de facts bout a certain thing, then u're de only one who thinks dat u noe de best and try 2 explain 2 them dat things r nt true and as bad as wad they said.. In de end only 2 find out dat actually u're de only stupid wan who dun noe de real thing dat is happening.. Haha.. Yah.. What a fool I am! Making joke of myself.. Perfect! Great! Fantastic!

Fine.. I finally know it.. Getting 2 noe now is nt too late either.. Blame on my stupidity 2 actually believe wad has been told 2 me.. Yah.. Maybe I shouldn't hav give a damn at all..

"Trust no one"...

Jealousy...

Ever feel jealous over certain things b4? No need 2 think dy, the answer sure will be "of course"! I believe every single mankind in this world will hav this feelings b4.. A child will get jealous when his/her parents dote their siblings more.. A student will feel jealous when their teacher seems 2 adore other student more than themselves.. A teenager will get jealous when the one dat they like is behaving quite intimately wif other ppl of the opposite sex.. A husband/wife will get jealous when their spouse talks happily wif other lady/man..

Of course I'm nt gonna state the reason 4 all those mentioned earlier, bt I'm just want 2 focus more on relationship.. In a relationship, why do ppl get jealous? 1st and main reason is no other than care and love.. They love the person deeply.. Dat is why they care.. If nt, they wouldn't even bother at all.. Some of them r lack of self-confidence.. So they r afraid all the time dat they may nt be worthy enuf 2 de one dat they like.. So when the person they like is close to other ppl of the opposite sex, they tend 2 start worrying and getting tensed over it.. Especially when de one they like went out alone wif dat person.. They r afraid dat if this thing continues, then one day the one dat they like will be impressed by the others and fall 4 them..

Yah.. I noe it's true dat all the girls won't like this kind of guy.. But how will u feel when a guy dat u like or likes u won't even feel anything even when u're behaving quite intimately wif other guy? It seems weird isn't it? Maybe he trusted u too much, dat's why he can tolerate.. But this kind of guy is quite rare.. Or maybe bcos he feel dat if u wan 2 leave then leave lo.. He still can get better wan.. Guy get jealous over this thing is a normal case..This feeling of jealousy is already in our blood since we were born.. Cant get rid of it..

Of course, being too sceptical all de time is definitely not a proper way of showing our love towards them.. Cos this will eventually causes a great impact 2 our relationship wif the one dat we like.. This is very true.. In a relationship, TRUST is very important.. Bcos without it, a relationship will not last long.. 2 me, I still feel dat cant really put the blame on this kind of ppl only.. Bcos I believe dat the more they love and care, the more they'll get jealous.. Reason, maybe bcos they still think dat their relationship is still undergoing the process of achieving a stable relationship.. If in between they hav 2 face this kind of obstacles, they will certainly feel very insecure..

My advices 2 all the couple in this world is, "must accept ur other half's weakness and trust them.. Tell them ur feeling 2wards their action and slowly give them time 2 change.. Not everyone is lucky enuf 2 be 2gether wif the one who they like.. So must cherish every single moments 2 be wif the one dat u love"..

Even in friendship also.. Sometimes I do feel jealous why my friends seems 2 like other ppl more than me.. Is it bcos I treat them nt gud enuf or I'm nt as perfect as the wan they prefer?.. lol.. 2 be honest, this issue bothers me 4 quite some time dy.. Now, I'm tired of it.. I noe true frens r hard 2 find.. All the wan dat I hav met only prioritize on appeareances and those who r funny and playful.. Some r nt even reliable.. Haha.. Not going 2 care anymore.. Just gonna be myself..
I love myself 4 who I am!.. I believe one day I will meet wif the one who is really true 2 me.. And 4 sure he/she is nt going 2 be like u all(only refer 2 specific ppl).. Bcos God is fair..

Hmm.. "I'm a bad person.." Dat is wad I keep telling myself nowadays.. But.. Damn!.. If only I can be more cruel.. In order 2 survive and get into our current society, I guess hav 2 be like dat.. I'm starting 2 ignore how ppl looks at me or comments on me.. U gt prob wif me, then why de hell should I care? Come and confront me if u dare!.. But dun think u're so holy until dun hav weakness lo.. Hate the sight of sum ppl who feel dat they r always right and talks rudely.. Dun even feel like looking at u!.. Spoil my day and mood only.. See how I'm going 2 treat u later on..

Sigh.. Is this the step 2 become a bad person? I dun noe.. But I prefer this way.. At least I didnt get hurt.. It hurt others who deserve it..

If.....

Wonder why the heart still hurt when think of her...

If this is called as crush, then how long it will last?

If this is called as affection, then why it doesn't seems to fade?

If this is called as admiration, then why do my heart keep hurting?

If this is called as love, then how strong will it be?

If this is how it ends, then I rather choose not to begin in the first place...

The day where my worries start...

2nite see a lot of stars sparkling on the sky.. Feel so relieved as the cool breeze gently blows by my face which brings me a cooling effect.. 4 quite a long time didnt hav this kind of feelings dy.. Maybe bcos b4 this feel stressed over many things dat happened, mostly de unpleasant wan.. Ever since dat misunderstanding occured, I hav lose my faith in my frens and slightly changes my attitude 2wards de others.. Maybe can say dat I hav became more sensitive and would nt follow as wad they wish like I used 2 be b4.. The now me is more serious and less playful I guess..

Hmm.. This probably would hav cause some of them 2 begin 2 loathe me and maybe sumtimes angry wif me.. Bt who cares?? I feel the now me is okay ah.. More real and natural.. At least I dun hav 2 listen 2 them all de time and do as wad they wish.. My advices 4 dear readers, "U can tolerate ur friends most of the time, accepting their weakness and 4get the bad things they hav done on u.. But must hav "limits" 4 dat.. If tolerate too much and excessive concern bout them, they may look down on u and step on ur head.." I'm nt sure whether how true is this statement but one thing dat I noe is I prefer 2 be wad I am now although some ppl may nt like it..

Just hav 2 say dat, if u think dat u cannot accept who I am now, fine then u find others 2 be ur friend.. I dun really give a damn on it.. I would nt be "7-11" 4 u all like b4, 24 hours available 4 u.. That is very pathetic!.. I will be like dat, only 2 those who I really treated as close frens.. And also 4 those who I think is gud person.. So the wan dat I trying 2 keep a distance from u now, dun expect anything from me.. And make sure b4 u scold me or comment me, see how bad and pathetic u r 1st and ask urself wad right u hav 2 comment on me.. Or else dun blame me 4 being unpolite 2 u.. Very pitiful.. Wonder wif ur terrible characters, how r u going 2 face the society in future..

Hmm.. 2day is blood donation day in school.. Wonderful! Can help again 4 2nd time!.. Cos b4 this went 4 public blood donation day at leisure mall 2 help out also.. Sigh.. Cant donate blood, so de only way I can contribute is 2 help out during de blood donation.. And I dun noe why, really enjoyed it! Initially, didnt really bring any help 2 them, but when started, it gave me will and spirit 2 continue until de last 2 donor..

After school went 2 quite a number of places 2 buy the ingredients and items 4 the coming canteen day.. Of coz, nt only me alone but wif chin sean and also kontak's future 2 be AJK.. Reason of bringing her bcos she and her friend gt few ideas 4 the canteen day, so... Hmm.. We spent bout Rm110.00++ But we did bought lots of things although didnt manage 2 finish buying all dat we needs.. Feel bit ease as finally we hav decided on wad we're going 2 sell on the coming saturday.. And honestly, I did enjoy shopping 2day wif them.. Thanks 4 accompanying me and gave me few great opinions and ideas.. Really appreciate it.. Hope dat our hardwork will pay off.. And at nite, talk to 2 of my friends, kontak members.. Told bout the expenditure 4 2day..

Situation 1:(1st person respond)
"Har?! Rm100.00++?! Omg.. What u bought? U noe if me, I can gt a cheaper prices? My total sure will be Rm80.00++ like dat.. I wont spend so much like u.. Havent bought finish our ingredients already spend so much.. We sure will spend more than Rm250 if plus the rentals and etc... @%$#*@$%*^$#&^$%#%~~~~ Sigh.. Since already buy, cant do anything.."
p/s: If u're so capable, why dun u buy urself? Dun tell me ur mum or dad also dun hav transport lo.. It's all depends on whether u're willing 2 or nt.. Always try 2 push away when ppl call u 2 buy.. 我不爽!

Situation 2:(2nd person respond)
Har?.. Rm100.00++ ah? What u bought? I think hor since our expenditure so high liao, we dun use eggs in our burger lo.. At least will cut down de cost.. Hmm.. U sell so much ah? U think can sell finish? And de gas dat we use will be enuf? Or we buy 5? (I asked her whether she's angry or nt cos I spent so much, then she say...) Hmm.. No la.. It's consider reasonable bcos we bought a lot of things.. So now if plus on drinks, I guess will be around Rm200 la.. Since we bought so much liao, so now just hav 2 make sure dat everything is sell out lo.. So I'll calculate everything again 2moro.. (And b4 I said bye 2 her and hung de phone, she said...) Oh.. 真的是辛苦你们了.. 今天麻烦你们跑这样多趟..(sumthing like dat)
p/s: U're a rational and understanding person! Glad 2 hav a member like u! Hi 5!

So it shows dat ppl do hav difference.. I dun wan 2 comment on it.. I guess dear readers will get wad I meant after u hav read the conversation.. Hav 2 thank de 2nd person cos, bcos of her words, I feel more relieved and hav more confidence 2 carry out de plan on this saturday..

2day quite happy bcos gt 2 noe new friends! They r very friendly warm person.. Really nice 2 meet u.. But I'm starting 2 worry..............

Friends?? Haha.. What a joke!!..

2day, lost temper at one of my friend.. Sigh... Yah.. Shouldn't have done dat.. All this while I'm gud in tolerate their attitudes but 2day I just couldn't stop myself from doing so.. Of course not entirely my fault.. Have 2 blame urself 4 being too playful while we were discussing important things.. Wan 2 joke also must noe the right time.. And of cos giving ideas who cannot? Nt dat I dun wan 2 accept ur ideas but just an idea only is nt enuf.. I also can give loads of rubbish! Actions speak louder than words.. So prove it! Show me ur proposal.. And dun 4get we hav limited time.. U hav 2 survey 4 the prices, ingredients, popularities among students, competitors and risk dat we hav 2 take.. By the time u plan everything, the canteen's day dy over..

Sometimes things aren't as easy as u think.. Just like wad happen 2day.. The "great" idea dat u all gave is turned down by teachers.. Fantastic! Thanks 2 u all we hav 2 replan everything again.. If I commented on ur ideas, u all will 不爽 me.. But u see, now happen just as wad I had expected.. Even teachers dun agree.. Leader? Yah.. I admit dat I'm not a great leader.. But at least I did try my best 2 present the best things 4 our canteen's day.. I even went 2 survey shop by shop 2 find out the best prices 4 our items.. Why cant u all do so?

From de very beginning since I take over de position of president of kontak club I dy told all of u, the position and status is nothing!.. All of us r the leader and we'll move 2gether.. Dat is why I asked 4 everyone's ideas b4 I made a decision everytime.. Why cant u all be more understanding? I dun need ur respect, just want a bit of unity spirit among u all.. Is it dat I asked 4 too much? No need 4 me 2 mention, u noe urself wad I'm refering 2..

These few days hav 2 juggle wif works and friendship prob, of cos will be bit tensed up.. I apologise if I hav done anything wrong or unintentionally offended any1..

Friends?? Nowadays, when I hear this word, I feel pathetic.. Those hypocrite who claimed urself as my close friend should shut the hell up and stay away from me!.. As long as u didnt betray me, I dy feel very thankful.. Create a big misunderstanding 4 me 2 face and sacrifice my friendship wif others 4 ur own happiness and strengthen ur friendship wif them.. What a great strategy!! A big applause 4 u!! If u all want 2 ignore me or 不爽 me, it's up 2 u all.. All I can say is things r nt as bad as wad u think and know.. All of this is just a misunderstanding.. Believe it or nt.. Maybe u should give me a chance 2 explain the real situation if u r rational enuf..

All this while, I'm trying so hard 2 join u all and ur group, just want 2 get 2 noe u all better.. If dun believe can ask andy wad I've told him b4.. But now, bcos of a small misunderstanding, all my efforts hav went into the vain.. Now I'm nt upset over people 不爽 me, but I'm sad and disappointed on the one who I trusted so much b4 this.. U know how much I trust u and the others.. I even treat u as part of my form six life and feel thankful 2 god 4 bestowing me such a great and wonderful friends.. But the truth hurts.. Thank you so much!.. U let me know the meaning of being backstab or betray.. I hav never being betray by my friend in my entire life.. Congratulations! U're the 1st one 2 do so!.. U let me know de feelings of being sabotage.. All these while, I only hear ppl telling me they hav being backstab by their frens but never did I expect it happens on me..

It's okay if u tell the truth and let them know clearly.. But u didnt! U let them noe part of it and mislead them 2 another view on this.. How can u do so? U made me change my impression on u completely!.. Although I cant bring myself 2 hate u bcos of this, but I am really really disappointed.. Everything u did I can tolerate, but nt this!.. I dun noe how u feel when other ppl 不爽 me bcos of this, but I guess I can be sure dat u're happy 4 obtaining ur stable and blissful friendship wif them now.. I really dun noe wif wad kind of person I'm supposed 2 be or show 2 face u again.. Bcos I dun even noe how 2 persuade myself 2 forgive u.. It leave a deep scar in our friendship.. How I wish I had wronged u.. How I wish all this is just my conjecture.. Wadever la.. I dun really care whether being fren or nt being fren wif u all.. But I noe dat time will reveal the truth.. U all just do as wad u wish 2 and wad u feel comfortable wif.. I bear no grudges on u all..

Come on la.. Like I said b4, friends will sumtimes 不爽 each other over certain things dat they do, but didn't prove dat 不爽 means 不爽 everything bout u wad.. Didn't tell it out 2 u bcos, want 2 save ur face, bcos if straight away tell u in person, of course u'll feel awkward also rite.. Lastly, want 2 press on it again dat all of this is really just a misunderstanding!.. 4 further info, pls come and find me in person and we'll hav a gud talk bout it.. If the fault is really on me, I'll apologise.. 不爽 a person 4 a long time and make enemies wif others is nt my style! Of course I really hope can resolve this matter as soon as possible..

From this incident, I get 2 noe dat we musn't simply trust anyone!.. We care 4 them doesn't means dat they'll care 4 us and our welfare the same way we do.. Some human r too FAKE!! They can be very cruel in order 2 achieve sumthing even if 2 sacrifice their friends happiness..

Nite b4 school reopen...

Cant get asleep 2nite.. 2moro will be school reopen dy.. Maybe dat's de reason why couldn't fall asleep.. Supposed 2 feel happy and excited bcos finally can get a chance 2 see u dy, but just couldn't smile happily.. Cos I'm afraid dat after seeing u 2moro will make me miss u even more than b4...

"Tell me why u're so hard 2 forget...."

Tagged by Hazel...

1.) What is the relationship of you and her/him?
Nt sure.. Close fren.. Sum1 who I can share my prob wif..

2.) Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
Cool(or should say bit boyish), mature, hav beautiful smile, make ppl feels comfortable when talk 2 her, likes 2 hav fun..

3.) The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
Walk around the school wif me 2 find 4 the person who I like.. Sounds silly, isn't it? (last year)

4.) The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
Most of her advices.. One of it is, "Our leelee such a nice guy sure gt a lot of chance, nt only her in this world.. Leelee, it's nt ur fault.."

5.) If she/he become your lover, you will..
Hmm.. I dy gt sum1 who I like.. Summore, I'm nt her cup of tea.. But 2 me, she is some1 who is quite perfect.. Maybe her gud characters and pure heart have cover up all her imperfect.. She is a gud girl.. Not willing 2 see her getting hurt by any1..

6.) If she/he become your enemy, you will...
Wont be.. Bt if,... Then I'll try my best 2 save this friendship..

7.) If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..
Being more girlish.. Others no comments..

8.) If she/he become your enemy, the reason is...
Then it must be my fault.. As I said, she is gud.. If we becomes enemy, dat means I'm de bad wan..

9.) The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
Talks 2 her.. Pull her ears!..

10.) The overall impression of her/him is..
Wah, need 2 repeat so many times meh.. She is a G-O-O-D girl.. Gt it?

11.) How do you think the people around you feel about you?
Dun noe leh.. Most of them say I'm a good guy.. But I dun wan 2 be a good guy..

12.) The character of you for yourself is?
Huh? Need 2 praise myself? Or criticise? Hmm.. Start wif praising.. Soft-hearted, a bit kind, a bit caring, a bit patience, and... de others find out urself.. The bad wan is sensitive, easy get jealous, lazy, undecisive and many more.. Haha..

13.) What do you hate about yourself?
The bad wan which I mention earlier lo..

14.) The most ideal person you want to be is?
Hmm.. Myself now lo.. I like who I am..

15.) For the people who care about you and like you, say something to them
Stop wasting ur time la!.. Haha.. Just kidding!.. Yah.. Thanks!.. Appreciate it a lot!.. U hav gud taste!.. Nt bad!..

Ten people to tag:
1.Alva Lee
2.Adelynn Lee
3.Andy Chai
4.Chen Yen chuan
5.Chew Kai min
6.Chai Kian hao
7.Hazel Kong
8.Rajkumar
9.Fong Li loong
10.Lee you Jun

16.)Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
Hmm.. Currently single.. But gt lots of suitors.. Hope she'll find her true love one day.. The one dat will take care of her more better than she take care of herself..

17.)No. 3 a male or a female?
Male 4 sure la.. Still need 2 ask meh? Gud guy..This kind of male almost extinct liao.. Hard 2 find gud guys nowadays..

18.)if no.7 and 10. were together, would it be a good thing?
Wow!.. Omg!.. No.7, wad do u think? Haha..Of course....................... Wont be la.. Reason let no.7 tell herself hor... Haha.. Her blood will boil 4 sure if she sees this..

19.)How about no. 5 and 8?
They dun even noe each other well.. And summore both no.5 and no.8 gt sum1 in their heart dy I guess.. So not possible..

20.)What is no.1 studying about?
Studying bout cells, immune systems, homeostasis, reproduction, transpiration, respiration, DNA replication, genes, variation, etc... In short, Biology.. She is bio student.. Same class wif me..

21.)Is no. 4 single?
Hmm.. Yup.. Now still single and available.. Better be fast b4 he is snatch by others gals.. A perfectionist wif good-looking face and long in length.. Sorry.. I mean tall in height.. So hurry up! Actually, he also gt sum1 in his heart liao.. Too bad..

22.)Say something about no. 6.
Oh.. This cute, funny, friendly, caring, stylish guy ah.. Dun noe how 2 describe leh.. Overally, he's an interesting guy! And still single and available..
For futher info, pls call 016-7xx xxxx

Hmm.. It's fun answering all the question.. Now my turn 2 ask question.. Can I sleep now? I stay up in the middle of the nite just 2 answer all these questions leh.. Walao... Haha.. Ok ok.. I noe u all will say, "Go sleep la! Who ask u 2 do this in de middle of the nite?!".. Rite? U see.. I knew it!.. Ok la.. Gud nite evry1.. Sweet dreamz!..

The outing...

-------- Which wan u'll choose 2 be de world best-looking person? ------
----------------------------- Vote 4 them!.. ----------------------------------

-------------- One of de games dat we played.. Love-shaped.. ---------

---------------- Dat's de 1st thing dat came in their mind ---------------

--------------Cracking their brain 2 solve it.. So attentive.. -------------

--------------- Who is the cutest out of all? Cason win liao lo.. ----------

Outing finally over!.. It was quite fun lah.. But a bit less interesting than expected.. Haix.. And the worst thing is reached home very late, bout 9.22 p.m. (2 me it's considered very late).. Thought my dad will tell me off 4 dat but he didnt.. He just gave me a piece of his mind and looks angry.. Hmm.. And heard from my mum dat he scolded b4 I reached home.. Anyway, it's alrite now.. At least I didn't get scolded by him.. Just hav 2 behave myself this few days lo..

Early in de morning, went 2 pick up mei peng, hui min and then alva.. A bit 不爽 lo when bringing hui min, bcos of the way she directed de road and commented on my driving skill.. But small matter la.. Wont affect our friendship.. Friends sumtimes will 不爽 each other also ah.. So normal case la.. Haha.. Then reached jusco.. Booked the tickets and hav 2 wait 4 an hour.. So we all went 4 arcade(gaming zone).. Hanging around in there 4 a while.. Soh is gud in basketball lo.. He scored 366 pts.. Not surprise cos he has gud stamina.. Then watched mei peng played some childish game.. Haha.. It was funny especially her expression when she lost..

After dat, li loong joined us.. Went into the theathre and watched "Drag me to Hell".. My comments 4 this movie.. Sucks! Nt as scary as I expected.. Hate the sound effect!.. Too loud!.. The show is disgusting lo.. The old lady keeps vomiting all kind of crap.. And de ending was a bit "walao" 2 most of them.. Overally, didnt really enjoy the show.. Then, went 2 grab a bite at Mount Austin.. Dun noe why, feelings started 2 sink.. So may looks a bit 不爽.. Sorry 2 all those who were there ya.. I dun like 2 be emo also.. But no choices..

Finally, went 4 bowling.. My goodness! My 1st match was damn terrible lo.. Gt 22 pts only.. The lowest among all.. The ball kept going into drain.. Didnt expect dat.. Few years back at least gt few spare and strike but now.. Haix.. Maybe bcos paiseh or shy, dat's why dun dare 2 do big movements..(comforting myself, so dun mind ya) Haha.. Or bcos no skills, dats why..(real reason) So 1st match lost 2 every1 lo.. Dun really satisfy wif my performances, so try 4 2nd time.. And 2nd match li loong and mei peng also joined.. So the battle betw Huimin, meipeng, kian hao, li loong, cason, andy,soh and me.. Being determined is gud, cos I managed 2 score 101 pts! Happy lo.. Bt of cos nt the highest.. The highest is 148 pts(Cason).. He is the best player there.. And Nd has style of throwing and skills.. Gud player.. And he imparted his skills 2 kian hao.. And kian hao became good in few minutes time.. Incredible lo!.. From drain 2 strike 4 few times.. The not so gud wan dun wan 2 mention la.. It's very bad 2 laugh at ppl, u noe.. HahAha!! She only gt 8 pts!.. Hahaha!.. Hmm...(control) Bt very gud liao la.. At least she had tried her best.. But didnt expect lo.. She may looked strong physically bt most of her ball didnt even reached a quarter of the lane.. Unbelievable.. Dat's why, "dun judge a book by it's cover"..

B4 going back, went 2 nearby Pelangi 2 hav some ice desserts.. Taste gud!.. And we did hav fun there.. Play all kinds of games and listening 2 them teasing each other.. Wished could stay longer.. But time doesnt allow me 2 do so.. So hav 2 go back early.. On the way back, the way home seemed 2 be miles away.. As if there is no end 2 it.. Haha.. Maybe bcos feeling tired, dat's why..

Lastly, although 不爽 over some things but I really enjoyed myself 2day!.. Thanks guys 4 ur acompany and hope we'll hang out again next time!.. See you guys on Monday!..

Ending of holidays...

Hmm.. Recently, fall in love wif "情歌" by liang jing ru and "可不可以爱我" by lu xue rui.. Reason is very simple.. Cos both of this songs reminds me of her.. Dun noe how 2 describe just dat the feelings went deeper while listening to these 2 songs.. Congrats 2 both of the singer! Able 2 makes the listener sink deeper when feeling down or missing sum1.. But really hav 2 thank them 4 enabling us 2 show out our true feelings while listening 2 these songs.. Bcos not evryone will feel the effect of missing sum1 when listening 2 it.. I'm de lucky one!..

Few days ago, life was as normal.. Wasted quite a lot of time thinking and doing unnecessary things.. Was thinking when can I really start studying.. Everyday online and get 2 noe wad's happening around.. But wad's the point? Hmm.. The other day was msning wif my old friend who is now studying in russia's pre medic class I guess.. So long didnt keep in touch wif her dy.. Told her dat cant really concentrate in studies and havent really prepare 4 the exams.. She asked me, "too much of distractions?".. Yah.. I guess dats the main prob which keeping me away from books.. Hope can overcome it.. Anyway, hav 2 wish her gud luck 4 studies as I noe medic is tough.. So add oil ya!..

These few days got nothing 2 do.. Dat's why keeps finding opportunity 2 ask my friends out.. And finally, 2day we gonna go johor jaya 4 a movie and bowling.. The movie we're going 4 should be "Drag me out from hell" bah.. Not really sure.. But it's horror movie.. Honestly, I dun really like horror movies, or should say I never watch a complete horror movie b4 cos I'm afraid of horror movies.. Dun really dare 2 watch.. Haha.. Timid rite? Thanks 2 my parents cos since young they avoid me from seeing any horror scenes or any unpleasant thingy.. Dat's why.. Anyway, when watch 2gether in group should be okay I guess.. If really scared then just hugs the friend beside me lo.. Haha.. Just joking la.. Of course I won't do dat..

Hmm.. Just hope dat this outing will make me feel better and keeps me away from thinking too much.. Oh ya!.. Bowling.. It has been long since the last time I played 2gether wif my friends.. Guess it was three year back.. And 2day going 2 go 4 it.. Haha.. Feel quite eager and excited although I'm a lousy player.. But it'll be fun I guess, no matter how much of score we get.. Cos as long as the ball can reaches the pins, then u'll feel a sense of satisfaction.. 2 me la.. Haha.. Being optimistic sumtimes is good.. But I did get "strike" b4 this ok...

That's all I guess.. Hav 2 get myself ready now.. Hope it'll be a wonderful day.. Will update soon when I'm back from this outing..

Tagged by lynn...

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
Nose?

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
(Looking at hp...) Should I msg her 2day?

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
Lots of ppl leh.. Those who went 4 kukup's trip lo..

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
Should be bah.. By my mum..

5.Will you ever donate blood?
Hmm.. Wish 2.. Bt parents dun let.. =(

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Everytime when I'm feeling down, I'll find her.. So consider as best fren?

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
Yes!! All de cruel and wicked-hearted ppl in de world..

8.What does your last text message say?
U noe bout it? Dun worry la.. Her nose is sensitive since last time.. Most of de gals r like dat.. (something like dat)

9.What are u thinking right now?
Wad else... Hmm...

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
Was.. But now if can see her evryday will be very contented dy..

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
3++am.. cant sleep these few days...

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
What is tee? Haha..

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
U still need 2 ask?.. (refer no.2, 9 and 10)

14.Who was the last person who text you?
Hazel Frances Ruth.. ~Eehui

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.
1. Lim Ai wei
2. Lim Mei peng
3. Lau Hui min
4. Lee Yixuan
5. Lee Kai lyn
6. Chew Kai min
7. Nd chai
8. Chen Yen chuan
9. Hazel
10.Caesar(Kian hao)

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
Still single and available.. Want her num?

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Nt a male.. Very feminine..

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
Of coz not gud! No.1 is unavailable..

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Bio student.. Same wif me..

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
1. Iwei-last tues
2. Mei peng-msn, few minutes ago
3. Hui min-2 days ago
4. Alva-last nite
5. Kai lyn-last nite
6. Kai min-last week
7. Andy-last fri
8. Yen chuan-last tues
9. Hazel-few hours ago
10.Kian hao-last week

20. Is no. 4 single?
4 now yah.. But after this.... Very hard 2 say..

21. Say something about no.2.
Cute, caring, playful(sumtimes)...

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
L-e-s-b-...??? Wont be la...

23. Describe no.9.a caring person.
Haha.. Very tough question.. Give me few days 2 think.. Bt 2 frens, of course she is...

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
Wow!.. No.6 will win bah.. Cos no.7 is too gud.. (No offence ya.. ^^)

25. Do you like no.8?
Yah!.. He's a gud guy.. (fren hor, dun misunderstand..)

Hmm.. Try it out! It's fun!..

Can anyone please tell me??...

"The truth hurts ...You left me when I needed you the most ... " How I wish the one u're referring 2 is me.. Bcos if I were in his shoes, I wouldnt choose 2 leave u alone.. These few days get 2 noe a lot on ur feelings 2wards him b4 this.. No doubt, of course at the bottom of my heart there is a piercing feelings dat cant just be described by words.. I really didnt noe dat u hav such a deep feelings 2wards him.. But instead of getting jealous, I was hoping dat both of u can get 2gether.. At least u wont feel dat hurt and will lead a better life if compared 2 now.. Really dun wish 2 see u're in this situation.. 因为我知到真的很不好受...我不想看见你跟我一样的痛苦...

I always thought dat by treating u good and showing all my love and concern 4 u will help 2 make u happier and lead a better life.. But I was wrong.. I hav neglected wad u really need and wan.. Keep moving forward will only let u feel irritate and further our distance.. If being ur best friend will make u share ur problems wif me and seeks 4 my advices everytime u hav problems, I will choose 2 be ur best friend right now and right away without any hesitation.. I would rather be ur listener than ur suitor.. I’ll keep my love 4 u in myself and be ur true pure best friend.. It is better than I'm unaware of how u're leading ur life now.. I guess must be quite sorrowful, just dat u didnt show it out.. Bcos I noe very well, after all, it's not easy 2 4get and let go of sum1.. Everytime when u hav decided 2 let go, there must be sumthing dat is stopping u from doing so.. Sumtimes, some things dat happen or some places will remind u back of those days u were 2gether wif him, isnt it? Even if all these is true, but I still cant help u 2 do anything.. Is there any1 who can tell me what am I supposed 2 do so dat she'll feel happier and lead a better life?? I cant be de wan who she like 4 sure.. So what should I do 2 make her 4get bout him and put him aside? I'm at my wits' end..

I noe dat no matter how much of care and love I can showered u, it still cant replace ur feelings 2wards him.. But dun care bout what's happening bout u will be like deceiving myself as I do care and cant stop myself from thinking bout u every day, every hour, every minute and every second... I really hate this feelings!.. I hate myself 4 not being able 2 be the one who u like and unable 2 give u de love dat u wan.. Everytime when u're sad or sick, all I can do is nothing but 2 watch u and weep helplessly in my heart..

What is Love actually? Why do u like 2 make fun of ppl?! Getting 2 noe u is the biggest mistake dat I had ever done.. If I noe things is gonna be like this, I would rather choose not 2 meet u in the 1st place....

"A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go..."

Meaningful trip...

It has been quite some time dy since the last time I updated my blog.. Few months hav passed by just in a blink of an eye.. In between, of course there is lotz of things dat happened which somehow hav change me into a better person I guess.. Learn quite lotz of new things on wad I should do and not 2 do.. After this holidays, I hope dat I can really changed completely into another person.. But the one who I like will of course stay remains unchanged.. ----------------------- Wif 4 of my sisters at Pontian... -------------------------------------------------3 cool looking guys!.. Yo! --------------------

---------------- Wif wei ping, pam, janice, wan qing & ee ling... ------


------------------- Wif sin siang.. Beautiful background... ---------------


--------------Wif ying ying, bee sian, wen jin & chew kai min... --------




----------------------Group photo.. Lack of kai lyn(sick)... ----------

Last 3 days, went for a trip 2 kukup wif all my friends.. The trip wasnt really dat interesting bt I did enjoy the 2 days although things didnt really go as wad I had planned earlier.. But thanks 2 this trip, I'm able 2 interact wif some of my frens who werent dat close 2 me b4 this.. And of course they r interesting and also friendly.. Hope our friendship will improve further after this! And all the guys were damn high lo.. Their singing was perfect! But too bad, I'm not gud in singing, so only able 2 give them applause and cheer 2gether.. Haha.. Hmm.. Pity kai lyn 4 getting sick during the trip.. So miss the chance 2 go on boat and watch sunrise.. But when comes 2 singing, my goodness! So energertic! Sang until her voice turned hoarse.. 2gether wif jia min, I think they can make a perfect singing team.. Haha.. Hope u'll recover soon..

At nite, we celebrated mei peng's birthdae 2gether.. All the science club members also joined us.. I guess it was an unforgettable birthdae 4 her bcos...... She cried!.. Omg.. Maybe bcos of iwei's presents(a bouquet of lollipop and cute lollipop-shape birthdae wishes from everyone).. It's nt easy 2 make sum1 cry on their birthdae; iwei they all must hav put a lot of efforts on it..

That nite(3++ am) couldnt get a wink of sleep.. Thousands of thought running across my mind.. Went 2 the balcony alone and waiting 4 the sight of sunrise.. Must be very romantic if watch 2gether wif sum1 who we like.. Haha.. Then, li loong, ying san and hui min also joined me.. They couldnt sleep as well bcos of the sound effect of the horror movies.. Early in the morning(5 am), all of us went 2 3rd floor of temple 2 watch the sunrise.. But, after waiting 4 bout 2 hours, not even a single sight of ray of sunlight in the sky!.. Many of us give up and went back home.. Only left few of us stayed and changed the place 2 de port.. Of course, gud things r worth 4 waiting.. At last, we get the chance 2 watch the sun coming out from its horizon... It was an eye-opening sight 4 all of us as the whole process was really beautiful.. I managed 2 record it down 2 show it 2 those who were nt there..

Finally, it was the time 4 us 2 go back home.. The bus we take 2 pontian was damn freaking terrible!.. No air-conditioner, no windows and poor condition of seats!.. Luckily the bus 2 larkin was in gud condition which eventually brought our mood back 2 normal..

Hmm.. Missing the time dat we all spent 2gether at there.. Overally, it can be considered as an unforgettable and meaningful trip 4 me.. And 4 the guys, really sorry if I didnt really talk much wif u guys.. But I did listen and tried my best 2 join u all.. Maybe care 2 much 4 image dat is why unable 2 be as high as u all.. But after this, by hooks or by crooks, I must join u all no matter wad.. Cos I wish 2 be part of u all.. So hope u all will welcome me ya!

Bothered by problems..

"It never rains but it pours".. I guess dat is the best proverb 2 describe the situation I'm having now.. So many things dat hav change just in the blink of an eye.. Problems seems 2 be following up one by one.. It just happens as if like there is no full stop 4 it.. One of the major concern is on my friendship which I treasured the most b4 and also now.. As days passed by, I slowly realise how insignificant am I in my friends eyes who I really treated as my closest friends.. So many sweet memories I had 2gether wif them last year.. It is so memorable and unforgetable.. U all hav taught me a lots of things and make me feel myself worth.. Some even accompanied and helped me pass through the darkest hours I had went through.. I really appreciated it a lot.. But recently,I just realise dat actually I'm just like others passer by who pass through their life, who sumtimes bring laughter 2 them bcos of my silly actions.. All this while, I'm the only one who thinks how great our friendship is and how strong our fraternity is.. But dat is far from reality.. It is so gud 2 be true.. It can be said dat all this is like I'm making a joke and laugh myself.. Instead of telling me how close we r, why nt just calm urself down and ask urself, "in wad way and why u said so?".. "Is it really as true as u said?" I guess the ans will be a no.. All the things dat u all said and did is right and wadever I do is always wrong.. Why I said so? Of course I hav my own reason 4 dat.. Just think twice next time b4 u tell me 2 do sumthing or ask me nt 2 do sumthing.. If u were in my shoes, will u be doing the same thing also? Will u be considered as disturbing others too? 4 sure the ans will be no bcos is u r the one who do it.. I'm nt blaming u or nt satisfied wif u, just dat why when other guy did the same thing why it's nt considered as disturbing leh? 1st of all, I shouldnt be trigger or care 4 wad u said at all.. Why must I listen 2 u? As long as wad I did is nt wrong or let myself down.. That's it!! No matter wad u say I'm nt going 2 give a damn!.. I live 4 myself.. Nt 4 u, nt 4 others too.. I'm nt a weakling u noe.. I cant deny, other guy r much better than me in many ways, but I am who I am.. Why must compare me wif others? If u think dat the other guy is much better than me and worth 4 ur respect instead of me, go on!.. U like him, admired him, looked up on him or even crazy bout him, that's ur prob!.. No matter how perfect or how god he is, it's none of my business! I'm nt going 2 care even u're going 2 be affected by wad I said.... Cos I noe in the end, I'm still gonna be alone.. I'm nt going 2 let others and myself 2 ruin my life.. Perhaps now and apparently I'm really a loser and as pathetic as u think.. But soon I'm going 2 prove dat I'm no longer the naive and useless person.. Dat is wad u all expect after all isn't it? Those who cold-shouldered u some of the times and care less bout u seems 2 earn ur respect so much and those who treat u gud and 24 hours available 4 u seems 2 be so insignificant and dun deserve a better treatment.. Really heartbreaking u noe, as day by day I hav 2 figure out how significant am I 2 u all and wad must I do 2 improve myself better so dat I'll earn ur respect like any other guy.. Maybe it's my stupidity 2 think like dat but I did bcos I care.. Haix.. I guess tell also u wont understand.. Just hope dat next time b4 u ask me 2 do anything, put urself in my shoes 1st..
I'm really sorry if I had offended any parties by writing all this.. I'm nt angry or anything.. Just 4 time being I'm really being bothered by all this thinking and all things dat had happened..